My sins are my torment. The lies I tell to make poeple stay are away my own. I lie to every person I meet so they think that I am a certain person and so that they will never know who I really am. I cannot except myself, my own faults and failures, so I make it seem that I have none. I know that the people I meet know that I am full of crap, but they will never know just how full of crap I really am. Confession 101, be honest with yourself so that you may be honest with others.

I confess, i tried to kill myself earlier this week. I wanted to OD on the acetaminophen in Lortab10s. I looked it up and about 4 grams is the dosage where it starts to induce liver failure. I took 12 pills, or 6 grams. After about 15 minutes i got kinda woozy, like a weird drunk like feeling, not really slurred speech or stumbling around, but more of a slowed brain activity feeling. I went to go lay down, and i woke up about ten hours later. My wife said she noticed me tossing and turning real badly while i slept, but nothing too out of the ordinary. I then got ready and went in to work. While there, i took the last of what i had, 10 pills, so 5 grams. I wish i had taken all 11 grams that morning. Now its been about three days and i feel fine. Well, fine for me. I have a lot of ailments and i'm tired of always not being available. I'm 28 and i'm afraid that as i age, i'm only going to get worse and my wife and kids will resent me. I'm in the military right now, but i'm getting a medical discharge that is taking way too long to happen. While i'm in, if i die (even by suicide), my wife will get my life insurance and death gratuity equaling $500,000. If i die after i get out, they get nothing. I wanted to do this in a way that it looked like i just died from my conditions. GRD, IBS, Asthma, and PTSD.

So last night I was prayin for deliverance and I kid you not, Jesus Fucking Christ (scrappy little brother to Jesus H. Christ, The Son of Man and Holy Lamb of God) came right through the rusted wall of my trailer and sat his glowing white ass own on my bed, right beside where I was kneeling. At first I thought it was my dead pop come back to life, so I reflexively reached for his cock since I was already down on my knees. But Mr. Christ gently pushed my hand away and said I didn't need to do that shit no more because he was gonna give me a real job.

So I thought wow this sounds perty interesting. Maybe he'll make me the fucking CEO of Mountain Dew or the Moon Pie company, or gimme my own taco wagon or whatnot. Anyways, so I says, yessir Mr. Christ, my dear Lord, I'm listening and sorry for grabbin your very big and powerful dick (I immediately pologized and said penis). What kinda job is you talkin about?

So get this, he wants me to go to fuckin flight school and learn how to fly them big fucking jet planes like what them motherfucking Arabs used to attack the US of A back all them years ago! I just looked at him and said what? He says, and this is a direct motherfucking quote, he says don't be such a cocksucking little sissy. Look, pussy, I put you here and I'll take you out. Your life is already one miserable faggoty failure after another and I am offering you a chance to have the real fame and fortune you have so far only seen in your wet fucking dreams. You in or you out, boy?

So what the fuck am I supposed to do now? He wants me to fly the thing into some super tall building in motherfucking Dubiey or some such wasteland in muslimville. He said the only way to send those goat fucking infidels (his words, not mine) a righteous message was to fly my plane into some building they have that's supposedly the tallest in the world. I thought that was the statue of liberty but whatever.

Anyways, so I says how is that dumbass plan supposed to make me rich? Famous I can see, but how is you gonna make me rich if I'm fried up like a crispy chicken nugget?

He just looks right into my one good eye and mutters some crap about riches in heaven and whatnot and when I start to call bullshit on that he just whips out his huge fuckin jesus cock and shoves it in my mouth. I been coughing up holy cum ever since.

Now I fucking start flight school in Florida in two weeks. I ain't never prayin again, I tell you what.

i have to confess. i have an addiction of rubbing my dick on my cousin's feet whenever she sleeps over. i usually wait till she falls asleep so i stay up till around 2am. Then i start to find a way to put my dick on her feet. it's hard when she has socks on but without failure i usually slide them off. then i smell them and jerk a little. i can't help but love the sensation when my dick rubs against her feet. i almost cum instantly. The first couple times i used to cum on her feet as i was basically grinding on them. i remember her once waking up just as i finished cumming and she kept moving her feet and saying something's wet. I played it off like a gangsta. but from that moment i had to stop cumming directly on her feet and just beside her. i usually cum twice every night she sleeps over. i can't help it. when she comes over i get super excited. it's an addiction. any thoughts?

I'm confused. I love sexually dominating women. But I'm not sure if the attraction is the power you get from the bondage, or the power from teasing them and driving them beyond the limits they previously had, or the knowledge that they're letting you do what you want to do and trusting you won't lose control.

The thought of a woman in a 4 point, be it hog tie or tied to bed or spreader... fucking exhilarating. There's that moment when I gently pour oil down their ass crack, and they know exactly where this goes. They feel the slight pressure. They feel it build. There's this conflict, they want to tighten up, but they're also wanting to relax. Then there's that moment, and they slip over, and it's in. They don't want it in their ass. I know they don't like it in their ass. But I patiently pressed, and there it is, they've got a plug in their ass. That's just the beginning.

Once it's in I'll tease, nipples, back, neck, fingering them right to that edge. To be a real asshole I even leave their panties on. They want to cum, but they don't want to seem easy, so they resist... but eventually there's no choice and it sends them over. They're so sensitive... Theres always this feeling of bliss and failure. Always a big wet spot and a reminder that i got them off with a plug up their ass.

Most would assume you plug, you finger, you fuck... nope. Now it's personal. Now I find something else to tease them with. Could be their toy, could be a paint brush, maybe a toothbrush, could be a vegetable, possibly their high heel, or a marker, or a hairbrush, could even be their husband's favorite cigar. But I'll have something personal to make sure they get fucked good. Something personal, something theyll remember. I want them cumming even harder this time. After they cum I'll usually leave it in. If they're tied to the bed I'll ride their face. If they're hog tied or bent over they know they're getting skull fucked. But it's not rough, it's not gagging... I throat fuck them and I enjoy it. If I cum I try to cum on their face. Again they don't want a facial. I know they hate cum on their face, but they let me do it. A few times they've asked me to wipe it off. If they do I use their panties.

So by the time I finally fuck them they've accepted a plug in their ass, sticky warm cum on their face, and two really good teasings. All of that builds to a great fuck... I let them think i forgot but i never do. Its like a cherry on top. They felt it the whole time. As they feel it start to slide they know.... the plug is coming out and they're about to get ass fucked. Putting it in their ass is fun. Hearing them admit I'm in their ass is even better... but yeah as dominant as I can be it's the tease that really gets me.

The women I've dominated range from 23 to 56. So many firsts for so many of them. Most never let a partner put even a finger in their ass before. Half never used objects, a few never gave blowjobs and most never had cum play... Some have done cuffs, or a leash, but full bondage is new for them. And yet they let me do all that and more, because they trust me.

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My Many Fantasies: My Job at The Max Security Prison for Black Men

inspired by this:

In this fantasy i am desperate for a job and find myself begging for anything i could do to a warden of a high security prison for the nastiest of criminals. Of course it turns out the warden is quite crooked and take total advantage of my situation. I am given a job in HR and find myself to be the only female and the only employee in the "prison happiness" department (in fact I'm the only employee in that department) and my job requires my services 24/7 for 3 months straight probation. During this time my first duty is to service the warden i am to serve him breakfast every single day at exactly 7am completely naked and of course offer myself to him sexually to use in absolutely ANY way he wishes until i have the honor of his sperm which i am to beg and grovel for like a dirty slut!

For the remainder of the morning i am to work in the showers taking care of the prisoner's hygiene. I am to be naked in the shower with only a collar that says "cleaning service". The prisoners are brought in one after the other and I am to lick each of them clean ... their entire body ... and every square inch!!! Then i am to lick out their asses ... inside too!!!! I am to pay extra attention to their balls and cock. I must tease them to the point of insanity but i must not let them cum. Part of my performance review is based on how many prisoners i am able to wash and whether i was able to keep them from cumming.

At noon i am to serve the prisoners their lunch. i am to do so on my knees. before serving their lunch i must lick thier feet and ask permission to serve their lunch and after serving it i must take their cock deep into my throat and wish them bon apatite while their cock is still deep in my throat! Again i must not let anyone cum and my performance review is based on how many prisoners i am able to serve lunch and whether i was able to keep them from cumming.

The place where all the prisoners eat is a very large area with a raised platform in the middle and places to sit in circles all around the platform. It looks almost like a setup for a boxing match for thousands of spectators but instead of a boxing ring there is an open platform. While the prisoners eat i am brought out onto the platform and tied down in some painful an humiliating way. It's my job now to provide entertainment and also thank the guards for their great work. They come in groups of 4 or 5 to fuck me in the most savage ways as i scream helpless in my bonds while the prisoners cheer and call for them to go at me even harder!! After the guards are done with me and the prisoners have finished eating and enjoying my gang rape the prisoners are brought to the platform in a line where i am still bound and trembling. They come up to me in small groups and thank me for the show by spitting on me. Most of them spit in my face or squeeze open my mouth and spit inside but some spit in my gaping ass and pussy. I must thank each one out loud for spitting on me and say that i hope he enjoyed my entertainment. For this part of the day my performance review is based on a satisfaction survey the guards fill out as well as how many of the prisoners i get to "thank".

Once they are done i am to clean the whole eating area. I am to stay naked an I am not to clean my self at all. I must clean the entire eating area dripping cum and spit from all my holes! For the platform i am only allowed to use my tongue and my hair. It usually takes me a while because of all the sperm from the guards and spit from the prisoners that leaked to the floor. It is difficult for me to clean the raised seating area because of the bondage and extremely rough fucking i am not able to walk or climb well the stairs so i must mostly crawl on my hands and knees. If while crawling sperm or spit leaks out of me and fall on the floor then i must immediately lick it clean! My performance review is based on how quickly and how completely i clean everything especially the platform.

In the mid afternoon i am to kneel naked in the toilet wearing only a collar that says "Urinal". It is my job to make sure the prisoners take their bathroom break. I must beg each prisoner to pee on me while licking their feet. When they decide to do so i must spread my legs wide, push out and present my breasts and open my mouth as wide as possible while always on my knees. Every so often it is one of the prison gang leaders or influential prisoners that take their turn and for these special prisoners i must beg for their pee while licking out the inside of their asses. They also have the privilege to pee inside my throat or inside my ass or pussy and i must thank them while licking the underneath of their feet!! As you might guess my performance review based on how many prisoners i relieve in the toilet but also how much pee i swallow!

After this i am dragged out to the court yard where i am setup up on a sybian machine which has an attachment which gyrates and vibrates deep in my pussy almost to the point where it pokes into my cervix. There are 3 lush vibrators pushed into my ass. Electrodes are clamped to my clit and nipples. My hands are tied hard behind my back and a noose is put around my neck and tighten just enough to hold me up by the neck and make it difficult to breath. The warden then proceeds to control the sybian, lush vides and electricity for all to see but i am always denied orgasm. The guards and prisoners take great pleasure in watching me break to the point i beg like an animal and offer to do the most disgusting things imaginable just to be allowed to cum ... but still i am denied no matter how i beg no matter how i cry no matter what i offer. Of course i am naked and all over my body is written my full name address and other personal information along with many humiliating things like i am toilet and i am only good for raping! The prisoners are allowed to spit on me and the guards are allow to take pics or vids of me. The guards really get a kick out of telling me how they will send copies to all my family and friends and how they will make me famous on the internet. i am in complete shock and distress the whole time, my body is overloaded with sensations and then repeatedly denied release while i struggle to breath as i lapse in and out of consciousness.

After a few hours of this i am completely broken, my eyes are glazed over and empty and my body is constantly spasming and trembling. the writing on my body is touched up so that it is clear to see and easy to read and i am fitted with a new collar that say "dog slave" on it. A leash attached and i am dragged through the mud of the courtyard because i can barely move my body let alone walk back to the platform in the eating area. I am told it is supper time and i must once again provide entertainment. This time it's not with the guards but with all the guard dogs of the prison!!!!! Even in my broken state my eyes showed fear and i started to plea for mercy when the warden zaps me long and hard with a cattle prod! My eyes shoot out of head and i scream so loud no sound comes out as i shake with pain and pee myself right there on the platform in front of everyone!!!! The warden speaks to me only to say "you are a dog, you will only bark like one and you will be mated liked one. Now should me how a true bitch begs to be mated while you clean your mess with your tongue!!!" If i had any shred of humanity or dignity left then it is completely destroy in that moment as i lean down with my bare ass high in the air and start to bark seductive and desperately while liking my pee off the dirty platform floor. From that point on i was only allowed to bark and failure to do so would be met with another hard shock from the cattle prod. Everyone cheered as the guard dogs took me one after the other while i barked and grunted on their huge doggie cocks. The roughness and rawness of these large dogs bred to fight off the most vicious criminals in the worst conditions is beyond anything imaginable. The hard trusts sent my little body reeling in every direction. Every dog without exception was make to knot me and every time their cocks ripped trough my cervix and filled my womb with their hot sperm! These dogs were huge and their knots enormous so once inside me i was completely stuck for however long i was knotted. To the delight of the audience once the dogs had filled me up and were well knotted in me the guards would call the dogs to them or throw treats around causing the dogs to run around and drag me behind them like a rag doll as i screamed and screamed. Because of the knotting and games this went on for quite a long time. Eventually they start bringing the dogs in groups of three having one take and knot my pussy, another knots my ass and the other is forced into my throat so his knot is stuck in my mouth!!!!! The crowed enjoyed this to no end especially when the guards had the dogs run in different directions tugging and ripping at my body as the pulled in different direction. The noise i made where completely inhuman like an animal begging fucked to death which i probably am at this point!!!! Once all the dogs were done with me i was placed on my knees in the middle of the platform, the dogs were all lined up and one by one they were brought to me to thank them for mating me by licking their asses and pushing my tongue dep inside as far as it could go! Most of the dogs also had to pee and when this was the case i was to take their cocks into my mouth and have them pee right down my throat!!! This part of the day does not go toward my performance review it is considered an obligation and i am made to endure until each and every dog is serviced.

After the dinner show i am allowed to finally wash up and i am allowed to eat the scraps left over by the prisoners ... anything i can find on the floor i am allowed to eat.

For the next 2 days i am allowed to recover (so i can be made to live through the same ordeal over and over and over). I am placed in a large dog cage out in the courtyard of the prison. I am of course completely naked except for a collar that says "your happiness is my life". I am given only dog food to eat and when thirsty i must beg for someone to pee in my mouth. Usually during this time only the prisoners with the best behavior are granted the pleasure to feed me my dog food and serve me thier pee to drink. My mandatory morning service to the warden is the only exception where i am not in my cage.

On the third day after servicing the warden i am given to the cell block with the best behavior for the day. I am to be their slave and doe anything ... anything ... they order of me. If i hesitate even for a minute i am to be penetrated with the cattle prod and shocked from deep inside my body until i do what they ask anyway!! Usually i am made to cook and clean for them as well as bath them and worship their bodies and usually there is not a minute that goes by where there is not at least 1 or 2 cocks inside me!! at 8pm i am to be returned to the warden where i must thank him for the wonderful opportunity he gave me with this job by licking his feet and deep inside his ass. The warden then cums on the dirty floor and i am to worship and praise him out loud while licking up his sperm off the dirty floor.

The next morning it all start all over again ...

Hey motherless I got some breaking world news! Pakistan Lifts YouTube Ban!

for 3 Minutes.... XD

"ISLAMABAD, Pakistan — A ban on YouTube, which Pakistan imposed after an anti-Islam video caused riots in much of the Muslim world, was lifted Saturday, only to be reinstated — after three minutes — when it was discovered that blasphemous material was still available on the site.
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After months of criticism of the ban, the government decided to allow Pakistanis to have access to YouTube again, saying steps had been taken to ensure that offensive content would not be visible. But those efforts apparently failed, and the authorities quickly backtracked.

The ban was imposed on Sept. 17 following violent protests in response to the video, which was made in the United States and ridiculed the Prophet Muhammad. The government then ordered all telecommunications companies to block Internet material deemed offensive to Muslims and urged people to report such material.

But the ban on YouTube came to be seen as censorship, and a growing number of the estimated 25 million Internet users in the country complained.

“This is purely a naked power play by the government and one that we should resist,” an editorial in The Express Tribune, an English-language daily newspaper in Karachi, Pakistan, said Friday. “This is about controlling our behavior and denying us access to the Internet.”

“We need to make it clear that we do not wish to regress to a dark age when a centralized authority controlled all access to information,” the editorial, observing the 100th day of the ban, went on to say. “Retreating to such an era would essentially mean that we were longer living in a democracy.”

By Friday evening, Rehman Malik, the country’s interior minister, indicated that the ban would be lifted over the weekend. Mr. Malik said firewalls by government technicians were being installed to block pornographic and blasphemous material.

On Saturday, the Pakistan Telecommunication Authority directed local Internet service providers to make YouTube accessible. But by the afternoon, Geo, a private television news network that wields immense influence, reported that anti-Islam and blasphemous material was still available on YouTube. The criticism was led by Ansar Abbasi, a right-leaning journalist who often speaks out on morality and religion.

Yielding to the criticism, Prime Minister Raja Pervez Ashraf then ordered providers to again block access to the video-sharing site.

The flip-flop drew an immediate rebuke from users and led to a flurry of jokes on Twitter about the government’s dithering and backtracking.

“YouTube is a huge convenience for users, who benefit from it for educational as well as entertainment purposes,” Zubair Kasuri, the editor of Flare, a Karachi-based telecommunications magazine, said in a telephone interview. Mr. Kasuri expressed surprise over the government’s failure to install an effective firewall mechanism despite having months to do so."

Hows that for fucking retarded?

I am german, so we are all nude in the sauna(just for the prude faggots from the US to note). Whenever I am in the sauna, the longer I stay the more my dick gets hard. It's not based on others it's based on the heat. It seems that I am "working towards" some climax, it's like knowing that I am about to come but different. I did not wait for what was to come as I am not sure whether this is a sign of soon to come heart failure or climax(I don't have a heart disease history though). But still the heat and being nude there feels like something is building up.

Anyone having similar experiences and knows more what's to come? Quick I'll be in the sauna soon again.

I have done some pretty fucked up things in my life that im ashamed of and hurt a lot of people (mainly family). I don't know what to do any more and my living situation sucks. I don't feel like i am in control of my life. I feel like i'm just in stand by mode, just wating to be told what to do. I don't even work and I don't know what's normal and what isn't. I wish my families life could be reset and we all had a new chance to be a normal family.

I hate my father for making me and my siblings life shit and only setting us up for failure. I hate that I don't have anyone to talk to about my problems and hate that I am in my 30's and haven't accomplished anything in my life. I don't even have a certificate or something I can feel proud of. I feel stupid and I'm not good at anything, even though some people think I am smart. I don't know how to live a normal life. I don't know what normal is and am always questioning my self and hating my self.

Sorry, just venting.