This will be my first confession and know there will be no nudes or some extravagant tale of how I got with my sister or daughter or what not. This will just be a simple confession of something I need to get off my chest. Before I get started, I will point out that both my current girlfriend and my Ex are under age while I am not but I have parental consent. Be warned, this is a long story.
So here it is. When I was still in school I met this girl in world of warcraft, I was actually introduced to her through her father who I had known for about a year or so in game. She and I hit it off and became really good friends, we would talk about anything and everything, tease each other, overall we just had some really good times. I found out she lived in america, about 1600 km south of where I lived in canada. Eventually I couldn't afford WoW anymore, we kept in touch through facebook but the messages started coming less and less. Then in march of 2012 my mother passed away, I was only 20 so needless to say I was pretty messed up by it. I decided to make a change in my life, I had always been careful about every single decision I'd made so others would approve but from then on, I just wanted to do things for my own happiness. Summer rolled around and finally I got a message from her, for the sake of the story we will call her Jenn. So Jenn messaged me and we got to talking again. It was great, like we never stopped talking. We started talking about what we've been up to, she asked about my mom and such, but something seemed off with Jenn, something was bothering her and she seemed to have changed a little. Anyway we would talk about her boy troubles, you know the common douchebags that only want one thing and when they don't get it they cheat. I gave her some advice on how to get the attention of this new boy she liked and made the joke that if he still didn't want her, I would take her. Not fully serious but she was a very attractive girl and if I had the opportunity I really would. Anyway we kept talking about things here and there, about my job, her school etc. One day Jenn told me she was having problems with her boyfriend, turned out she was now seeing that boy and though they cuddled, they hadn't done it yet, the problem was they had an argument about it, she wasn't ready and he was so that day instead of going to see her like they planned, he payed a visit to his ex girlfriend, I'm sure you all get the picture. So obviously my advice was for her to dump his ass and not waste the tears on him. About a week later Jenn messages me, I could tell she was upset so I answered even though I was at work, she told me she took him back, they had sex and then he blew her off again for his ex and was flirting with another girl. I told her that's why I said to leave him, that he was only after sex and once he got it he would move on to the next trophy. She agreed and dumped him on the spot. We kept talking and I made the joke again that I would take her, although I meant it a little more this time and to my surprise Jenn replied with "can you please?". Just like that it was like a light bulb went off in my head, why not? I was 21 years old with no obligations, no commitments, I wasn't doing anything profound with my life and worse yet, I wasn't happy.
So we started a long distance relationship, I made plans to move to the southern part of Canada so that if I were to go visit here, I could make the trip in one days drive. I got a texting plan on my phone so I could text her instead of always using facebook and of course from there we started sexting. This is about the time when I found out she was only 16... yeah not my brightest moment. But we got past that, we continued sexting, talking, I moved down south. Finally I found out what was different about her since the time we played wow together, it turns out, around the time my mother died, Jenn was drinking at a party and someone was feeding her everclear (and probably something else) Jenn was raped that night by a friend of her sisters, that was her first sexual experience. The night I found out I went to the gym and broke my hand on the heavy bag. So we continued our long distance relationship and I was working on getting a car, Jenn started to get a little more adventurous with our sexting and wanted to exchange naughty pics, obviously I didn't say no. She was magnificent, Jenn had a well toned body from soccer that was just starting to get a little plump because she had been off with an injury, she had long brown hair, beautiful green eyes, a nice sized runners ass, long legs and oh my god that rack! 16 year olds these days, god damn! I convinced her to take a bet that if I could guess her bra size she would send me a tit pic, because at this point all I got was lingerie pics. I took a good look at her pics, noticed the bras she wears are a little tight and came up with 34-C, BINGO! I got my tit pic! I told her she should move up to a D but she was in denial about her boobs getting bigger. So things kept moving along, Christmas rolled around which was when I had hoped to visit her for the first time, but I ended up not being approved for the car loan so I was saving money for a car instead. I could tell Jenn was getting tired of waiting, so I decided I would go for a cheaper car. It was about mid January, I texted Jenn to let her know I was going to look at a car the following Tuesday, she said cool and that was pretty much the most I could get out of her for the next few weeks. Finally, I had my car paid for, it was in the shop getting the safety and e-test done and I was looking forward to driving to Jenn's to surprise her for Valentines day, It was currently only the 6th of February though, that night I went online, ordered a nice bouquet of flowers with a silver heart pendant that was hanging on the vase. The next day I texted Jenn, this is our conversation.
Me (3pm): 1 week ;)
Me (5pm): I hope you'll be home next thursday after school (that's when the flowers were scheduled to arrive and me shortly after)
Me (9pm still no response and she had been doing this for a while): You must be pretty pissed off with me :(
Jenn (9:30pm): I can't do this.
Me: what do you mean?
Jenn: Any of it.
Me: Please don't, I getting things in order, I'm so close.
Jenn: it's not that b
Me: than what?
Jenn: It's me. I'm done. I have this nasty habit of pushing people away. That's what I've done. I'm sorry I'm horrible.
The conversation continues but the last text I ever received from her was "I don't like you anymore" she then blocked me on facebook and blocked my number. Just like that I was tossed to the side like a dirty rag, treated like garbage, feeling disposable and to add insult to injury, the flowers were non-refundable... she still received them on valentines day.
The month before all this I was introduced to my uncles best friend and his daughter, who had just gone through a breakup of her own. We were starting to become friends at this point. Shortly after valentines day I started seeing her, she was my rebound girl, no doubt about it. To this day I am still with her. I am now 22 and she will be 18 at the end of the month. I feel guilty though cause she really loves me but I'm still hurt, I still think about Jenn every night, I can't get her out of my head and it kills me. I just found out Jenn is with someone now, and when I was told, I cried, I hadn't cried since my moms funeral. I never was a crier, I could probably count the number of times I've cried in the last 15 years on one hand, but that hurt.
So that's my story of how I fell in love, only to be thrown away like garbage yet still I want her back. Before anyone asks if I'm gonna share the nudes she sent me, know that they have been deleted. The day she dumped me I deleted all the pictures she ever sent me. Thanks for reading.
