I'm a 20 year old woman and still a virgin. I feel like I've missed the boat and anyone I hook up with now will know I'm still a virgin and tell everyone. I masturbate a lot and watch extreme porn. I worry that I'm too fucked up sexually to have sex with another person now. I would die if my friends or family found out what I do every night.
I'm preparing for life as a forever virgin. The only guys who hit on me are guys I find repulsive. I've even considered paying for a male escort but they're all muscly gross airheads where I live. I'd rather get a bunch of cats than date some gross guy.