My beautiful wife cheated on me with a nigger and it destroyed us both. It happened over twenty years ago. Our marriage ended shortly after this. I left her but have never been able to get past it...neither has she. She wa a hit as hell 21 yo girl..5'5 with chestnut brown hair and a lithe body with small but perky tits with nipples that could cut through glass and a true bubble butt.
The incident was consentual....but was on that borderline between non-consent and coercion. He knew her through her work and played like he was simply wanting friendship. He kept wanting to go out and have a drink and maybe some dancing. Afterwards they went back to his place. He had been a perfect gentleman until he got her in his house. He then started to try and kiss her. She tried to make him stop. He got up..locked the door and dropped his pants and showed her his dick. Apparently she was scared but turned on....she told me she was mesmerized by it...and he told her she had been teasing him. He walked up close to her with his dick right in front of her. She protested that she was a married woman and this should not be happening. He said he did not care that he wanted her. She felt she had little choice...but also said it was still cosentual because she did not refuse any further. She said she was really turned on and wanted it to happen.
Apparently he was really hung and was very aggressive. She said he was twice my size..litterally and fucked her hard...very hard for about an hour. She said she got to the point she could not take it any ,ore and begged him to let her suck his dick to finish. She said she plead with him to let her suck him off. He finally agreed.
This event and the knowledge of who it was and how good it was to her has destroyed me. I am a racist guy...at the time I tried to not be so. We all are to a certain degree. Now I do not even try...I hate them. This event tore me apart and though the pain was horrific...as time has passed it has become my obsession.
The thought of my beautiful white wife getting monsterfucked in a dingy mill house in the late night hours of January 1994. Being fucked silly by a black motherfucker who was willing to force her..but she demands it was consentual....in the town of Camden. S.C.
To make matters worse...this was a small southern town and people found out about it. They were both employees of the city and word spread fast. I was not only cheated on by the woman that I loved with every once of my being but was humiliated by it. I never will get over it.
That is my confession....I have never talked to anyone about it. It is one of those things that the people that know me and know what happened avoid. I moved away and do not talk to anyone from my hometown except family. I never re-married and it is because of this event. My ex-wife did but to a man who she does not love....he is simply a "good man" as she describes him. She willing confesses that she is still in love with me. She has descended into depression that has left her a recluse and physically a wreck.
It will never end....it has been this weight that I have carried since that night. It ruined my life...in many many ways. I should probably see a shrink....but they do not really solve pain...they just help people deal with it. I am so ashamed that even the prospect of talking to a real person is un-imaginable to me. So I have lived with it by myself for over 20 years. This is the time I have told the true story even in an anonymous fashion to anyone.
