When I was 18 I ventured to the seedy section of Boston called the Combat Zone. I heard all the sordid stories of prostitutes and strippers as well as the crime and how rough it was. I was curious to what really went on down there so one night I skipped out on my friends and headed into Boston to check it out. I was 5'11 long blonde hair and weighed 135lbs. I had on jeans and a t-shirt and definitely peeked the interest of a few men as I walked down the street. I was new to sex with girls and had never had sex with a guy. I knew I wasn't gay or anything like that. I walked by a few strip bars and some adult book stores and came to one that looked interesting. I didn't see anyone in the store so I went in.

As I walked in I was stopped at the counter by the clerk who asked me for my ID. I gave him my drivers license and he laughed and said sure kid have fun. I was very young looking. I was 18 but I looked closer to 14 or 15. I walked up and down the aisles looking at the huge collection of porn magazines and sex toys. When I came to the back of the store I saw another section called Peep Booths. I asked the guy who was sitting at the desk what it was. He asked if I had ever been to a peep show before. I told him no I hadn't he said well its a bunch of booths inside where a person can go and watch some porn videos. I asked how much it was and he said $3 minimum. I gave him a $5 dollar bill and he gave me my tokens. He said go inside and find a booth and enjoy. I took my tokens and walked inside. It was so dark I could hardly see my own hand in front of me. As I walked along I felt hands grabbing my cock and ass. I kept moving not stopping. I walked up and down through this maze of booths and came to one that I thought I would try. I went inside and locked the door behind me and put a token in the machine and the video started playing. As the video played I could see in the booth and noticed a hole on one side of the booth. I looked down and saw a man in the other booth obviously jerking off. I sat up on the chair and watched my video. When the time expired I put another token in.
I then heard a knock on the door and a man said open the door please. I thought it was the man from upfront but when I unlocked the door a black guy pushed his way inside and told me to be quiet. I was very scared. He asked why I was there and I said I was just watching a video. He asked me if I sucked cock and I told him no I was straight. He laughed and said that doesn't mean anything. Lots of straight guys suck dick. I then noticed that he had his cock out. It was very big. Much bigger than my 5.5 inch cock. He told me to suck his cock. I told him I didn't want to. That's when he took out a bottle and said here sniff this it will make you feel better. I didn't know what they were. I asked and he said they were called poppers. I took a sniff and all of a sudden I felt so lightheaded like I was high. I had no control and I went to me knees. The guy then took my head and shoved his cock into my mouth. Suck it he said. I didn't know what to do my head was spinning. I began sucking his cock and I could taste his salty precum. He was holding my head shoving his black cock deep into my throat making me gag. First time my ass he said. You're a natural. I was starting to get my head straight when he stuck the bottle under my nose and told me to sniff it again. I did and it all started again. My head was spinning. I felt helpless and was doing what he told me to do. Then I heard him unlock the door. I saw out of the corner of my eye the door open and could see 2 or 3 guys standing there watching as I sucked my first cock. About 5 mins later I felt him pull my head closer and he shot his load into my mouth and told me to swallow it. I was choking and trying to swallow but it was too much. I spit some out and it landed on my shirt. He let go of my head and I sat there on the floor looking up. Then he got out and another guy got in. He took his cock out and told me to suck him. Feed him some poppers I heard a voice say and the bottle was placed at my nose for me to inhale. I knew what to do at this point and inhaled. Then opened my mouth to take this new guys cock. He was also black and very fat. I sucked his cock and he came rather quickly. Another guy came in and said he wanted my hole. I was pleading for him to not do it. But he pulled my pants down and spun me around and told me to bend over. I did and he again fed me some poppers. He said this will make it better and I felt his cock press against my virgin asshole. I wanted to scream but my head was still spinning and I felt him enter me. I couldn't believe all of this was happening to me. I felt his cock open my tight hole and slide in and out. His balls were slapping my balls as he thrust in and out. That's it baby take that dick. You like it don't you he said and I said no. Then another person held the poppers under my nose again. They were controlling me with these poppers. He fucked my ass and shot his load deep in me. When he pulled out I felt his cum run down my legs. He was then replaced by another and then another. In all I took 4 cocks up my ass and sucked off 4. They all left me there when they were done using me and I sat in the booth crying my eyes out. I was so ashamed and didn't want to leave. After about 30 mins I gathered myself up and walked out. Not making eye contact with anyone. When I got outside there were 3 or 4 guys standing outside and I walked past them. As I walked by they said good night sweet cheeks and all laughed. I felt like shit. I kept walking even when a prostitute asked me if I wanted a date. I kept that story to myself until just now. I now know this was my reason for becoming bi later in life.

I'm very private & discreet. I like some nasty, wild, & exciting fun. I like Gay/bisexual men &/or woman, Transsexual, & Crossdressers if you actually look like a woman to be my bottom & let me fuck the juices out that pussy. I'm a top (I don't get fucked). I love head & I would love to return the favor. I'm open to Threesomes (MFF, MFM, MMM, MTF, MTM, MTT) & Group Sex with couples. Love being dominant & in control. I get a thrill off the forbidden, sneeky, & thrill seeking sex. I also love making the Impossible possible & having something I never think I'll have. Now don't get me wrong, I'm all for a romantic setting, some 4-play, a lil role playing, especially if the woman is exotic & being enticing, I HAVE A Erotic, Flirtatious Nature. I'm kinky, nasty, ambitious, spontaneous, & tempting. I love Fun sex, wild sex, rough sex, I'm embracing my desires. I am what I am. I love what I love. Pornstar mentality & a open mind. I'm on a different level for some & too mature for most. I'm not judgemental & I try somethings at least once. I love to teach & be taught.

I confess, that while my girlfriend was gone to dominican, i hooked up with a guy on craigslist and i sucked his dick and jacked him off. I also let him feel my ass, after that weve been texting eachother andtalking dirty and he always wants me to meet up again, Not gonna lie i kinda liked sucking his dick

Before this, i started going into my moms
Underwear drawr, i chosw her sexy pantys md started playing around in them, checking out my ass and shaking it in the mirror, i dug further into my moms underwear drawr and found a medium sized dildo, i was really horny at tw time so i went in
The shower and used some loop and shoved that dildo right up my ass! It felt alright the forst couple times but recently its been feeling SO good with a hard dick up my ass... I always cum way more than i usually do after im done , this is what made me
Bi curious. To this day i have fantasys about my guy friends fucking
In the ass.. Im actually such a slut ahaha. (i am a guy)

Reply with ur feedback on my sluttyness id love to hear what you all would do to me :)

Does this make me gay? Should i still hook up with him?

i confess, I stole my moms dildo, since she hasn't used it in a while (long story) and I love to take it into the shower and use shampoo as lube and fuck my ass with it. the sensation you get from using shampoo as lube is like nothing else. make my asshole clench up and become very sensitive. I'm a 21yr old male btw not gay by no means just enjoy anal play with myself.

When I was 19 years old and in college in Florida, I got really heavy into drugs. Mainly party drugs like coke and ecstasy, and of course plenty of weed, but on occasion other drugs as well. I was out of control and living one big party life on my parent's dime while they struggled mightily to pay for me to have the opportunity they never had and go to college. Looking back I feel like a total asshole about it now as they wanted nothing more than for me to be successful and not have to struggle...sorry, I digressed.

Anyway, since I had no money and wanted to keep up my partying lifestyle and since I was always very athletic, in shape and considered "good-looking", through one of the people I met in the party scene I ended up doing some modeling to make some extra money. Pretty low rent stuff, nothing glamorous, but a couple hundred bucks a week.

This quickly evolved into the opportunity to do some "videos". It started with just masturbation videos of me lying in bed, or on a couch or in the shower jerking off. I figured I was going to do it anyway so why not get paid for it and I was getting paid $100-200 per day that I did a shoot. I could sometimes do 3 or 4 scenes in a day. The guy running the operation said he was impressed by my "re-load" ability and also that I had just the right cock for it...I'm about 8 inches, decently thick and my dick looks perfectly formed from shaft to head and can blow pretty big loads even after only a little break in between. I knew that these were primarily for gay guys to watch but I didn't care. If someone gets off from seeing me, so fucking what. I did these for a while and then he asked one day if I'd want to do some full sex movies and photo shoots and showed me some of his portfolio and all things considered the chicks looked pretty hot and we were now talking more like $300-500 per day so I jumped right at the chance.

It was a crazy scene and pretty much everything you wanted was at your fingertips. Women and drugs galore. Parties every night after shooting. We were all in the 18-22 age bracket so it was just a no responsibility show. But as quickly as I made money it went back out the door on drugs and partying. Then one night when we were partying at the main house this director used for shooting videos, him and a couple of the other "big wigs" in their operation asked me if I would be willing to do some more hardcore shit. At first I was thinking they meant bondage, s&m type stuff, but they quickly made it clear they were talking gay action. I immediately said not a chance, I was straight and no way I could do it. They pushed the matter (and a coffee table with a big pile of blow on it) and said that all the actors in their gay shoots are straight guys because that is the look they wanted in their videos, strong masculine men, not femboys. The guys just do "gay for pay" and they also said I could make up to a $1000 per shoot depending on the circumstances. At that point my eyes lit up and I think they knew they had me. I asked them more questions and they said I could be strictly a top and receive blow jobs, that I didn't have to get fucked or suck or kiss anyone if I didn't want to. I could also do bi scenes where a female actress or two would be involved. I said, what the fuck, let's give it a try.

The next week they had scheduled me in for my first scene. I was shaking like a leaf prior to which was totally not like me. In the other stuff I had already done I was totally calm and had no issues getting naked, getting hard and fucking in front of other people. It was a one on one scene with me and another guy. I was going to be swimming naked in the pool and then get out and immediately go to the lounge chair next to the pool when the "pool guy" was going to show up to service the pool and eventually me who was masturbating while watching him clean the pool. I actually was having a difficult time getting hard which was totally not the norm for me, but he came over and began blowing me for a while and soon enough I did get fully hard. I had sunglasses on and just kept my eyes closed and picturing hot women. I put on a condom and ended up fucking him in a few different positions and then to my surprise he end up blowing his load on my chest as he was riding me, then slid off my cock, dropped back down and sucked me to completion taking my load all over his face.

I said afterward that it wasn't that bad, but I didn't think I wanted to do it again...until I got my next offer and more cash. It went on like this for a while and me just doing the fucking and getting sucked. I still was primarily doing straight shoots though. Then the director came to me with a proposal for a scene. It would be me and this girl I had done some straight scenes with and we would be a "married" couple and then another guy who was coming to our house to do some repairs. But he wanted it to be a scene where me and her completely serviced this guy. We all were going to suck and fuck each other, no holds barred type stuff. I was extremely hesitant but he offered up my biggest payday yet and it was a good chunk of money for 4-5 hours of total "work". I was so far gone into the scene at that time that I agreed and said let's do this.

The day came and again I was nervous. I did all my usual prep on my "manscaping" and where I normally do everything I can to keep myself fresh down below, this time I added the step of the diet one of the other male actors recommended and his full enema routine to completely clean me out. The worst thing on a porn set when anal is involved is having a shit accident. It came time for the scene and we were in the bedroom on a king size bed where I was fucking the girl for a while then the "repair" man came in, he joined in with me "thinking" he was just going to play jointly with my wife but then he starts licking my balls and ass and pulling out my cock from the wife's pussy and sucking on it. We go through some more motions and she is sucking him then she tells me she wants to see me suck him and this is it, the moment I took a cock in my mouth. I did what I had to do and then after he fucks her it was my turn to take his cock. I was laying on my back as she sat on my face and then he started fucking my ass. Hurt like hell but I had to put up a good front. He even made a comment that got into the video about how tight my ass was. Anyway, we finished the scene after everyone had been fucked and sucked and I went out that night with some of the other people from set and we got destroyed on drugs and booze. I was fucked up beyond belief and when I got home that night I said that was it, I was done. Absolutely no more of all of it. The drugs the porn, nothing. The next day I called up the director and said to pull me from the stuff he had me scheduled for the next week. He tried to convince me and told me what a fucking amazing job I had done the day before, but I told him I had to get out. I couldn't handle the life and really was regretting all of it. I pulled the plug that day and never looked back.

So, somehow through all of this I didn't flunk out of school. I ended up completing my degree and living out a pretty mundane, boring college life and working a bullshit part-time job in one of the offices on campus answering phones and shit. Really nobody in my "normal" life had any clue about what I had done. My parents were none the wiser about anything I did partying or whatever and were proud as could be the day they saw me get my degree. I started a job with a top consulting firm and in the decade plus since, have worked hard and progressed so much in my career that I look at the "crazy" money I was making from porn and laugh at how little it is compared to now. I am engaged to a very attractive and smart girl who is an attorney and makes plenty of money herself, but also has no clue about my prior life.

I guess my biggest fear is that one day I am going to come on here and see one of my videos front and center. I know they are out there in various places on the web, but they obviously weren't under my real name and the look I had back then was very different than it is now where I am clean cut hair, have a beard, and even back then in a bunch of the scenes I had bleached blonde hair for a while and a deep Floridian tan. I guess my real name and SSN is on file with the porn company somewhere so that could somehow get out, but generally speaking I got away free and clear without any repercussions. Crazy the journey our lives take.

I'm here to make a confession and that's it. Great videos on here by the way.

When I was younger, my bro and I played with 2 of our cousins. It was a one time thing for me, but my bro kept on playing around with 1 of them for years.

Not sure how the first time happened. honestly I can't remember it at all. Me and my bro eventually started playing with each other.

This continued for years. Then one day he told his therapist. Then they notified my parents. It's the one topic we never discuss. Me and my bro talk and my parents don't treat us differently at all.
Shit's fuckin weird ay?

Anyways, full of regret. I'm not gay - I don't watch gay porn, never have in my life. I watch straight porn, sometimes lesbian, and only fool around with girls. My bro is the one dude I did stuff with and it's disgusting.

I confess that over the summer I was on a double date with my buddy and his chick at the movies and we saw Paranormal Activity 3 I believe. We came back to his house and smoked a shitload of weed and got totally baked. It got late and both our girlfriends drove home. We were surfing around on the internet together and he eventually went to a porn site and browsed the genres. He got to some gay shit like he was trying to push it on me, which made me kinda horny. And so I wanted to conceal my arousal so I told him I was gonna go to bed in his guestroom so I could masturbate. Maybe 5 to 10 minutes later he knocks on the door and I tell him to come in. He mentions to me that he's gonna go to college after the summer is over and he's never done anything with a guy before and he kinda wants to try it before he goes away. I play it cool but on the inside I was so totally nervous and excited because I've always wanted to fuck around with him. I go to his room and we take off our pants. We grab each others' cocks and he goes down on me, but he does it kind of awkwardly and made it a little strange so I ask if it's ok if we stopped, because I was starting to feel weird about the whole situation. Embarrassed, he says that's fine and I go back to my room. A few minutes later I had a change of heart. I walked back into his room and without saying anything take his cock out and start sucking his dick like a fiend. I was so horny by that point and the feeling of his dick in my mouth turned me on so much like nothing that has ever happened before. Within minutes, he starts moaning loudly saying that he's gonna cum so I start sucking harder and faster while rubbing his balls. And he shoots a hot load of cum into my mouth and I swallowed it all. We smiled awkwardly after it was over and I headed back to my room to masturbate to what just happened. We have never said anything about it to each other or to our girlfriends since. But there is always an air of sexual tension whenever we hang out. And I get hard whenever I think about his thick cock in my mouth. Just wanted to get that off my chest.

once i went out with a guy i thought was gay to a bar. turned out he was gay as the bar we went to was a gay bar. he bought me some vodka drinks and i talked to some guys. he took me home and he was playing with my dick on the way. i figured i'd let him suck me off, and told him to come upstairs. we got there and i took my pants off and he sucked my dick. it was ok, kinda wierd cause of the stubble. i decieded i'd suck his dick cause i always wanted to try it. he had a huge cock but it didnt get hard, i just put it in my mouth and sucked a little. i eventually came but he did not. ever since that night i still think about it, and it still gets me hard. sometimes i'd like to suck another dick, but i dunno how to start the process.

So, about a year ago I answered a mw4m craigslist ad in a city that I was going to be traveling to for business. I�d had a bi MMF fantasy for way too long and thought this would be a good way to fulfill it.

For several weeks leading up to my trip, we traded pics and emails. They were an attractive, well-educated couple who�d done things like this pretty regularly for a couple of years. I�ve had my fair share of sex, but never in a multiple partner situation, and never with another guy. I was, however, pretty �bi-curious� and had cammed with guys before.

Anyway, fast forward to the trip and meeting them. I was going to be in their town for 3 days and they wanted us to hang out every night. We met the first night at a bar for few drinks to loosen up. About 45 minutes in, �Sue� got an emergency call from work and had to leave. I thought our plans were about to fall apart, but she suggested that �Jon� and I go back to their house, hang out and wait for her to get back.

We get back to their house just as a young woman and little girl are walking out the front door. He jumps out of the car and runs towards them. I hang back a little. He hugs the older one and kisses the younger on the forehead and they get in a car and start to leave. He motions for me to come on in and explains that it�s his daughter and her sitter/nanny who only lives a few blocks away. The daughter is going to be staying at �Nicole�s� for the next three days and they�d come back to get a few things that �Jenny� had forgotten.

Once inside, he asks me what I think about his wife after having met her. I tell him she�s gorgeous, which she is. He says, �Did I send you the vid of her stripping and playing with herself? She loves for guys to see that beforehand.� I replied, �No.� �Well let�s go watch it before she gets home!� he says.

About five minutes into the vid and I�m hard as a rock and can�t wait to see her in person. I�m dying to stroke myself when Jon asks, �Are you hard?� I nod. �Can I see?� he says. He stands up and starts undressing and suggests I do the same. I just follow his lead and take off whatever he does. We�ve seen each other naked in pics, but I�m still pretty nervous I guess.

We�re both naked now and just sort of standing there. I look back at the vid just as she�s spreading her pussy lips and showing her clit. My dick twitches a bit and he says, �She�s gonna love that inside her!�

I look his direction and down at his, which is also hard. He steps towards me and touches my dick. I flinch a little but like it. I reach down and touch his. He rubs me a little then sort of pushes me towards the couch and urges me to sit down. I sit and before I can even think, he�s pushed my knees apart, put his head in my crotch and taken my dick in his mouth.

I look up at the video and the scene has changed. It�s now Sue sucking a cock that does not appear to be Jon�s. The camera pans out and I see Sue on all fours with this unknown dick in her mouth and Jon fucking her from behind. All the while Jon is between my legs giving me, what I must confess is, fantastic head!

There�s some position changes going on in the vid and, just as the stranger takes Jon�s cock in his mouth, the phone rings. It continues to ring until the machine picks up and I hear Sue saying, �Jon, pick up the phone!� He stops sucking me and goes to the phone. I look over and see the same hard cock that�s getting sucked in the vid and think that I might be willing to take him in my mouth.

He hangs up and comes back over and says, �She won�t be back for several hours. Sorry.� Then he takes me back in his mouth. I look up again to see both Sue and the stranger working on Jon�s cock. I�m ready to suck him now.

Pretty "gay" so far I guess, but I promise it gets better!

More later�

For many years I jerked to pictures and videos of traps. One day I took a trip and had an experience for myself. The fantasy was way better than the reality.

The trap looks good when they are all done up and you are in the right light, but when you get back to the hotel most of the shit comes off. The sexy legs and height fall when the shoes come off. The tits fade away when they take off the bra. Most of the real traps you encounter don't have the money for real fakes. So they just use push-up bras to make it look like they have tits..

Both of you normally want a shower before you get to the dirty, so when the makeup eventually comes off you are left with a petite fem dude with girly hair. Once you get down to business it also kinda sucks. You only have two holes to fuck with. Get some head is fine, then its all downhill.

Playing with the d is kinda fucked up. You aren't playing with the d of some hot passable fem shemale like you see in pornos. you are playing with a dudes dick. Its like jerkin yourself off but without any feeling. Blowing is another story. With a condom on its pretty much like sucking on a balloon, and condom off is pretty gay haha. No but you have to be careful with STDs and shit. Who really wants some strange dude blowing loading in your mouth.

I guess you could ask them to stay dressed, but I know my balls stink after walking around all night, so I can only assume theirs do too?

Not to mention the level of crazy you have to deal with with a trap. They may have an STD. They may try and rob you. They may try coming back unannounced to your hotel. They may beg for money. I've had all but the STD thing happen so far.

Chicks are way better. They don't look quite as good without all the shit on their face, but it is pure woman. You wake up in the middle of the night next to a chick you feel pretty good. You wake up next to a trap you met on a drunken night out and the only think you think is how can I get her the fuck out of here.

When I had my son I never put much thought into his sexuality. After I got divorce it was hard raising him alone because I worked job that had shifts and so he would be alone sometimes. He was in the upper single digits when I got divorce so it was hard on him.

Due to my job sometimes he would be home alone and that means him having friends over. I was searching for something on my computer one day and I found porn from I site I never visited. I did not know what to say so I said nothing. One day I came home to him and the kid down the hall on my computer and I could tell they were up to no good as they had a guilty look on their face. That night I went in my browser history and their is was again porn from a site that I do not visit. What struck me most was it was straight, bi and gay porn which slept me speechless.

I tried to be open and so I had the sex talk with him and told him I was ok if he was gay. He said he did not know and that he felt funny down their when he saw the videos. The kid that came by was 2 years old than him. It is hard to keep them apart as we lived in an apartment then and so sometimes I had no baby sitter and had to go to work.

He had a birthday coming up and I invited all the kids in the building for a cake, pizza and ice cream party and he had a ball. The next day he called and asked if the friend could come by and I was so guilty for having to leave him I said yes. This time I came home unexpectedly and caught them touching themselves. By this time I noticed he was always hard and he had this habit of rubbing on me. I was so surprised I ended up moving away thinking that would help.

I moved into a house and I had a guy who shared the house with me. He would sometimes let my son come by and play with his games. One day he called to let me know my son could not come by because he caught him watching porn on his tv. I was so embarrassed but thankfully not long after he moved away.

I then started dating this guy as I was single for 3 years now and it was time I had some fun. I would always go to the guys place and sometimes I would take him with me. The guy also had a son who was older and once we were having set in his room and when I came out I saw him and the guys son sucking each other in the kids room. I was so shocked I brought him home right away. When we were going home I asked about the experience and he said he liked it and want to be friends with him. I forbid him because not that I was mad at him being gay but that he was young and I felt it was my fault now a few years later he is secluded he no friends and I wonder if its my fault.

I am ok with him being gay its the age and experiment that scared me. I did experiment at a young age myself and felt that I wanted him to be innocent as long as possible not like myself now I feel I was a hypocrite. Was I wrong? I welcome all comments and suggestions.