Heres my confession....
Ive always had this thing for anal sex...Freudian psychology and his bullshit may play a roll but I was never touched or done wrong as a child, anyway...

The first time I had anal sex was with a girl in College...she really didnt like giving head but she loved sex..so one night in a drunkin talk I told her I wanted to stick her in the ass, she would be my first...she replied "its been a long time!" lol yeah right bitch you in college fucking everybody lolol... She agreed and I grabbed some "baby oil" lol...I was still using comdoms at the time so I gently proceeded to put myself inside of her...she moaned low and deep until it was all the way in :-) I started to stoke her gently as she told me to not go to fast. Soon after about 5 mins her asshole was open enough to pound!!! I absolutely loved it!!! Of course I came and that was it :-):-):-)

Alight so the next time we linked I told her I wanted to do it again she agreed but this time half way thru the anal session the condom broke. I felt it immediately but I couldn't stop myself...I kept going and it felt so so so so so so good. And actually before this point in my sexual history I had never raw sex..only protected so this sensation was very new :-):-):-):-):-):-):-)

Okay now here is my true confession....A few years later, I had sex with a chick and she was used to anal sex. I trusted her so I proceeded in her raw...about 15min later I looked down at my dick and it was becoming brown...at first I wanted to stop because I started to smell the odor but then I found myself not able to control myself...I LOVE DIRTY ANAL SEX!!!! ITS JUST SOO RAW and NASTY. I LUV I LUV I LUV....I begin to fuck her harder and harder harder and busted a big ass nut in her ass. She then bent over and pushed it all out...I almost fainted from excitment!

My Confession!!!

Once again an Ashley Madison contact turns out to be fake. What a shock! This person, who went by the name "Vanessa," sent me a message and we traded four or five emails over the course of a week. She sent me five pictures in all, which I'm guessing came from some random Facebook account. She told a pretty convincing story: forty years old, in the midst of a divorce, born in Scotland and brought by her parents to the States when she was still a child. The parents died in a car wreck some years back. She was a freelance makeup artist who mostly worked on movie locations and, in this particular instance, was on a shoot in Turkey but planned to be back in our home town in about a week.

Her emails were long and personal, explaining that her husband had booted her out for a younger woman and how she hadn't had much luck on A/M until I responded to her initial inquiry. She also hadn't had sex in about a year, etc. But there were a few red flags that told me, pretty much right away, that this was going to be a scam. First, she never discussed what part of the city she lived in, while also mentioning nothing that would have indicated her familiarity with the area, despite my questions along those lines. And while her vocabulary was sophisticated, she occasionally used words that weren't quite what she meant, or expressions that seemed stilted. I've been an editor for many years and have a pretty good ear for when people are writing in English but it's not their first language. That was definitely the case here. Finally, her emails got sexual fairly quickly, as if we'd skipped a few steps in the normal man/woman getting-to-know-you phase.

I was curious to see where this would lead. So even being 95 percent sure this was bogus, I went along and provided equally engaging replies, while making sure not to give away any specific personal details. With her alleged "return to town" just a couple of days away, I was ready for the hook. And sure enough ...

In her final email to me, she wove a tale of woe that was equal parts entertaining and absurd. She claimed she needed to retrieve her makeup shipment from a local source, but the supplier had raised his prices and she didn't have enough cash to make up the difference. She claimed to ask the film production company to "give her a raise" but in the same sentence insisted they would only pay her upon completion of the job. She ended her email like this:

"What hurts most is that I do not have enough money on me to sort the bill and really hate myself for what I am about to do. I am at a crossroad, can you possibly lend me some money? I will pay back once I return home."

You see what I mean by the odd syntax?

OK -- there are so many things wrong with this scenario. First, if she was only retrieving her makeup supplies now, a couple of days before leaving for home, what the fuck had she been using on the movie set up to that point? Second, who goes to some foreign location as a makeup artist without having one's supplies in hand, since you could hardly expect to find the unique items she claimed to require in some random place in Turkey. Third, what kind of company that deals in such exotic items -- she insisted this was all custom stuff -- does not also take credit cards or, conversely, who goes overseas without having the means to withdraw funds from an ATM. It's fairly certain most places in Turkey are somehow connected to the international banking system, right?

Here was my reply:

Hi Vanessa:

No.

Nice story, though. And by the way, we say "crossroads," not crossroad.

Love,
Zac

Naturally I did not receive a reply. But just to play with this person's mind a bit more without giving away too much of my game, I sent this email the following morning:

Hi Vanessa,

So -- does this mean we're NOT getting together when you "return"? That's a shame. I was looking forward to sliding my talented tongue into your sweet "Scottish" pussy. Does it taste like haggis? LOL!

Your friend,
Zac

I confess that I got an 18 year old Guatemalan girl pregnant in response to her Craig's List ad.
So, me being the ever so horny guy that I am and of course not getting any at home was browsing
Craig's List ads. I came across one that I was sure was fake, an 18 year old BBW from Guatemala who
wanted to get creampied in the hopes of having a kid of her own. I responded. It took her a few days to get
Back to me, but when she did I sent her a pic and told her my After a few chats through email she said she wanted to meet me, and that I was on the top of her list. She stated that she preferred an older guy who was married, and I was both. We met. She wasn't really a BBW, she was short, stocky and a little thick.
She had a heavy accent but was decent looking enough. She wasn't as nervous as I was, meeting in a public place (a gas station near her parents house). She told me the times her parents were at work, and the days she worked at a retail shop and we both came up with some solid times to meet. She wanted it to happen in her bed and in her room, she didn't want it filmed (she brought that up, not me!).
Cutting to the chase, we met about 10 times, and she was a freak. The first time we were together we went to her room, she took her clothes off and asked "are you ready to fuck?" I disrobed in seconds. Her stocky body was accented by plump perky breasts with quarter sized aureolas and nipples that stuck out a half inch. Sexy as hell in my book. Her pussy was completely shaved, the raven hair on her head was just under shoulder length. She massaged my cock as I stood in front of her and put it in her mouth. She moaned as she sucked it and started playing with her pussy. I watched her playing with her clit as she sucked me off. I wanted to lick her and I did. I buried my face between her legs, and she pulled my hair and made me stop. "Lay on the bed" so I did. She mounted my face and started ride my face. She started sucking my cock as we sixty nined.
"I want that cock" I was shocked she was talking like this, "fuck my little pussy" and I did. Now, I've never had tight pussy in my life until her. She spread her legs and I put it in her. It was so tight, gripping me - I could feel every little movement I made inside of her. She swivels her hips and met my every thrust with gyrations that were out of this world. I didn't last long. Each time we met the sex was even better, we were both getting off and we genuinely liked each other. The last time we met, we fucked and we relaxed together.
"That was a thank you fuck, I'm pregnant" she was ecstatic. My heart dropped, here is the part where she blackmails me and I'm fucked for the rest of my life for thinking with my dick right? Wrong. She kissed my lips, and told me we were done and to never come back, that she would raise the child and didn't want me for anything else. I felt heart broken. Not only was I falling in love with this girl, but I would never be able to see my child. It still hurts.

I have had a "secret" for some time, and have been afraid to really tell anyone about it. But seeing that you can put something on here "anonymously", Helped me make a decision to share.. Before anyone asks, there are no pictures, or "proof" other than what I am going to say. So, if you call "bull" or whatever, it's o.k. I am in my late 40's, a bit overweight, average height. A few years back, my wife and I separated. Some close friends invited me to a private beach in South Carolina.. about 30 couples shared the beach area. in a secluded site. It was a nude beach. I was new to this, But decided why not, I "mingled" around for a while. there were several families, complete with children. All seemed perfectly comfortable being nude. I decided to walk down the beach a little ways, drink a few beers, and get some sun.I found a huge tree stump, washed up on shore by a big rock. I laid out my towel, and used some sun block, layed back, and drifted off to sleep.
I woke up to a feeling like someone was playing with my cock..several things crossed my mind..maby a crab, or animal was messing with me, or even the thought it might be a guy.I wasn't sure how to react, but resisted the urge to "jump up", Slowly ,I opened my eye, to see what was going on.
There, between my legs ,was a girl, I'm not sure of her age, but she was young. She had my cock, rubbing it, and playing with it.I thought about jumping up, and chasing her off, but, by then she had me pretty worked up. I was nervous as hell, thinking that someone was going to find us, and I was gonna go to jail, and be labeled a child molester, etc.but she was working me, and had started licking and sucking the tip..so I just continued to play like I was sleeping, and hope we diddn't get caught. She had obviously done this before, as she had me raging hard, and she licked up the pre cum like melting ice cream. I knew I was going to pop at any minute, and I have to admit, seeing her suck was a huge turn on! But, she stopped, and stood up, she had a pretty cute little body, a nice tan, and brunette hair past her shoulders.As I watched, in amazement, she straddled my cock, and put the tip to her hole..I felt her tight little pussy take the head as she pushed down, So tight! but she was doing the "work".after moving up and down a few times, I felt myself sink deeper. she was rubbing her clit, and pulling it, as she rode. This was unbelievable! But, just as she was riding good, I heard a distant voice calling "Jenny"! she rose up and I came out with a loud "pop". I saw her grab a pink beach towel and head off up the beach. I was about to burst, so I jacked off thinking about what had just happened, it diddn't take long..
I told my friends that I had really enjoyed the beach, and wanted to go back, if they would let me. However, the area was badly damaged in one of the hurricanes, and the beach house was demolished. But, they said it will be rebuilt, and I am welcome. It may be this year. I'm hoping my little friend visits again.

I confess, I'm a 21 y/o virgin, but nobody knows because I'm also a pathological liar and lie to avoid the embarrassment. I've had my dick sucked many times by my cousin, probably in the high double digits and I kinda sorta fucked her friend but not really. She was unattractive and I couldn't stay up. This 16 y/o Im talking to "tried" to suck my dick but she's no good at it and I didn't come. But porn has kind of kept me satisfied. Besides my addiction to it and it making me oversleep everyday to the point I get F's in class because I don't show up ... I'm pretty satisfied. Just jump btwn porn and facebook all night and eat. And the phone sex with this 27 y/o school teacher is cool too. She was molested as a child so sometimes I play big daddy and she plays baby girl, but I don't think she knows what I'm getting at when we do it.

I confess, I'm a 21 y/o virgin, but nobody knows because I'm also a pathological liar and lie to avoid the embarrassment. I've had my dick sucked many times by my cousin, probably in the high double digits and I kinda sorta fucked her friend but not really. She was unattractive and I couldn't stay up. This 16 y/o Im talking to "tried" to suck my dick but she's no good at it and I didn't come. But porn has kind of kept me satisfied. Besides my addiction to it and it making me oversleep everyday to the point I get F's in class because I don't show up ... I'm pretty satisfied. Just jump btwn porn and facebook all night and eat. And the phone sex with this 27 y/o school teacher is cool too. She was molested as a child so sometimes I play big daddy and she plays baby girl, but I don't think she knows what I'm getting at when we do it :)

Last night I had a most amazing experience with a very expensive call girl. A friend of mine recommended her, telling me that she will know what I went better than I do myself.

I am 58 years old, widowed, my children are grown up, and have cashed out pretty much all of my high tech investments in January of 2001 so I am doing pretty well in terms of finances and career.

Also before last night I never had sex with a woman other than my late wife - and we were both virgins when we got married. (We met at Bible Camp.) Anyway, I decided "Fuck my Calvinist upbringing!"

So she showed up at my hotel, we talked for a bit and then started making out. She was a gorgeous green-eyed brunette, long hair, breasts I would guess 36C. Beautiful breasts. She looked around 25.

And when I took off her dress and bra I could see and touch them they were beautiful, flawless, very nice to touch and nice to kiss. And I started kissing them and when I got to her nipples I took them in my mouth and gently sucked them as he held me to her breasts and it felt so good I just kept sucking them.

And then she started to talk to me like a child, saying things like "Yes baby, you need mommy don't you" and that felt very nice and at the same time very sexy and also a bit weird. And I stopped sucking her breast for a bit looked in her eyes and said in a little boy voice "I love you mommy". And she stroked my face and "I love you baby boy".

So I kept sucking her breasts and then started kissing my way towards her pussy and she stopped me and asked "What are you doing little boy?" and I said "Mommy I want to eat your pussy!"

And she made a stern face and told me that this is very wicked and wrong for little boys to do that - and then she put me over her lap and started spaking my ass for being so naughty. Spanking me with her hand, but pretty hard. Now I could have broken out of that if I wanted, but I felt like a little boy and I could not fight mommy.

She kept doing it until I actually started crying and saying "I am sorry mommy. I am sorry mommy". At the same time by this point I had an incredible erection.

And then she cuddled me and told me she knows that I am a good boy and that I learned my lesson. And she got some skin cream and put it on my ass and then sat up on the bed and cradled me so that I could suck her breasts again, and said "I can see your little cock is very hard. Do you play with it sometimes?"

And I said "Yes mommy" and I thought she was going to spank me again. But now, she said "You should never play with yourself, its a sin". And then she started stroking my cock as I sucked her breasts. Her hands were amazing, very soft and gentle.

And when I would get ready to cum she would slow down, and stroke my calls, and my stomach and nipples and thighs and then start start on my cock again. The overall sensation was amazing.

I finally blew my load and she said "I think you need a bath baby boy" and she actually gave me a bath, talking to me all the time like a child. She dried me off and brushed my hair and made sure I brushed my teethhelped me put my pjs on.

And she tucked me in and told me that its now time for bed and mommy must go and I must be a good boy and not turn the lights on and start playing. And I put my arms around her neck and said "Please stay with me mommy" and she said "I have an appointment tonight, but you call me and we will spend more time together". And she kissed me on the forehead and turned off all the lights - leaving the light on in the bathroom with the door open a bit so that I get some light and don't get scared, and left.

I fell asleep soon after, it was the best sleep I had in I don't know how long.

I am definitely going to call her again, and get her for the entire night.

Now I have never done anything like this with my wife. I never thought of this - but it was amazing - like my friend said, she seemed to know what I need better than I did.

So after 5 years and one child, my GF finally got sick of me lying and cheating online with guys and girls. She decided I can stay until the end of the lease which is 5 months away, but that she has a guy already. She will be going on dates with him and needs the bedrooms sometimes.

So I come home from work, my daughter is at her grandparents. I was supposed to meetup with my friends after work but they had to cancel. I hear grunting and "oh gods" coming from our bedroom. I sneak towards the door to take a look and see him, fully mounting her on all fours in the ass. The place I was NEVER allowed to go. Without a condom. Pumping her really fast and hard while she plays with her pussy. I watch as he gives it to her really fast as they are both sweating.

At the time I was disgusted, but excited. I backed away slowly, walked out quietly, and jerked off in the stairwell. Even though I am totally upset that she has already moved on and that we will never be, I am totally turned on and wish I could see all their sexual fun.

My girlfriend babysits for many of the neighborhood parents in my town, and occasionally brings the kids to my house where I have board games, video games, and generally more ways to entertain them than she has at her apartment. There is one girl in particular, we'll call her Krystal, who she tends to babysit more than the others because her mom holds multiple jobs that often give her scattered work schedules.

Krystal is about nine years old and generally gets along with me quite well. She calls my girlfriend her big sister and me her big brother. Whenever my girlfriend brings her to my house she loves playing some of my old PS2 games that are themed more for younger players. Last night was no exception.

We had just finished dinner and my girlfriend needed to bring the other kid she was sitting home, but Krystal just did not want to go with her on the errand because she wanted to play video games. My girlfriend asked me if it would be a bother if Krystal stayed home with me while she left, and of course I told her it was no problem at all. She trusted me with all her kids, and I really didn't mind playing my old PS2 games with the kids on occasion.

With my girlfriend gone and not to return for at least half an hour, Krystal scurried down to the basement to play video games while I cleaned up after dinner. Clean up took me about five minutes, then I headed downstairs to keep an eye on Krystal. When I got to the bottom step, however, I could see that she wasn't playing a video game at all.

I had apparently left a porno dvd inside my PS3, which I have never done before. When I'm done watching them I have always made sure to eject the disc and put it away with the rest of my stash upstairs, and I could have sworn I did the same thing this time, but I was obviously mistaken. Krystal was just sitting there on the floor, watching as the guy on the movie was playing with the woman's pussy. Krystal's jaw had dropped while she stared in awe at what was happening on the screen in front of her.

I slowly made my way toward her, not knowing what, if anything, I should say to her. As I was finally standing beside her, I couldn't help but notice that she had her hand cupped over her own pussy. Trembling at this point, I cleared my throat and got ready to explain myself to her, but she spoke up before the words could leave my mouth.

"What is that man doing?" She asked. Being an only child, I've never been in this kind of situation before. I stammered for a moment, then managed to choke out a response, "He's making that woman feel good." My mind is screaming for me to just stop the movie and eject the disc before she had to see any more of it, but I was paralyzed as I stood there watching this awe struck little girl. "How is he making her feel good?" She asked.

My heart is racing. As I try to think of yet another response, she buts in once again, "This movie is making me feel weird." Her little hand had begun to rub her pussy ever so slowly as the man in the movie was now fingering the woman. My cock had grown to form a very noticeable bulge within my pants as I could not come to my senses and put a stop to what was happening. As the movie had transitioned to a close up of the woman's face, Krystal looked up at me and said, "I want to feel good like that lady in the movie."

I had been sent right over the edge of a cliff. All rational thinking had disappeared as if it wasn't even there in the first place. I knelt down on the floor beside her and asked, "Krystal, how would you like it if I made you feel good like that man is doing to the lady in the movie?" She nodded in agreement as my heart began to pound even harder. I helped her into my lap and explained to her what I was going to do, to which she nodded once more. With her ass on top of my groin, I instructed her to lean back against my chest as I spread her legs open.

My hand slithered its way up her tiny little legs until it was directly over her pussy. Gently applying some firm pressure with my fingers, I began sliding my fingers up and down against her snatch over her khakis. Her hips almost immediately began to move back and forth as she started grinding herself against my fingers. As her breathing became more labored, I started massaging her more firmly as a noticeable wetness had begun to seep through her pants.

(Yes, this is fake. I was bored and wanted to kill some time, but now I've got to be somewhere. I will finish this story later! If you enjoyed it so far, leave some comments!)

My Toilet Interests

Warning: If this isn't your personal thing, or you find the topic offensive, I'd stop reading now.

I very briefly considered posting this anonymously, but then thought that would be silly - as my online profile here is pretty much anonymous anyway. Also, the point of my being here is to be honest about everything in a way that I can't be in real life. It's bad enough keeping secrets from the people I know, I'm not about to start feeling ashamed about any of my interests when I'm here.

Like a whole bunch of other taboos, I grew up thinking that bodily functions were dirty and never to be talked about - aside from in a joking and deprecating fashion. Sure, you can joke about it but it's not something that's "polite", or "healthy" in a casual topic-of-dinner-conversation fashion. Also, like most other taboos, children don't have any inhibitions when it comes to this. By default, they *don't* think that it's disgusting or to be avoided. It's only when parents and society drill those thoughts into them that they end up feeling that way. (I often think that society itself is the worst form of child abuser and source of sexual dysfunction later on in life.)

So, like most people, it was my belief that pissing and shitting was something to be acknowledged but never actively discussed. It was also something that should always be done behind closed doors. (Aside from public urinals in men's bathrooms - a strange kind of "abeyance" of the normal social rule - where it's okay to pee in front of other men in a way that would be totally unacceptable in the privacy of a home.)

I further believed that both piss and shit were bad, harmful byproducts that were expelled from the body because they weren't good for it. When later realizing the sexualized kink genre around this, I was repelled and, intellectually, amazed (in a negative way) that anybody could even contemplate this. I couldn't understand the pleasure, let alone why somebody would risk illness in order to play with, or ingest, something that shouldn't have any contact with anybody once out of the body.

Of course, there were some interesting things that I came across in the media:

- If you get stung by a stingray, and there is no other method of treatment, it's beneficial to have somebody pee on the wound.

- If you find yourself in the desert, or otherwise dying from deydration, you can prolong your life by drinking your own urine.

- There is a relatively recent medical treatment called "fecal microbiota transplantation" (more commonly known as a stool transplant) where feces are transplanted from a healthy donor to a patient suffering from a C.difficile infection. This apparently serves to restore the "colonic flora" in the patient so that they can fight off their illness better. (And from what I understand it actually has quite good results - the stumbling block being the "ick" factor to the treatment.)

So, if waste products are so unhealthy for you - how is it that their use can be recommended, or it can be said that they are also healthy in some cases?

A little over 10 years ago I was on a business trip. This was also around the time that I'd gradually become more and more interested in all sorts of different types of sex acts - looking up video clips and pictures, even of things that didn't actually appeal to me just because I was curious. (I don't actually know if they didn't appeal to me at *some* level, or if it just became the case that the more I was exposed to various things the more open minded I became.) In any case, one of the books that I'd taken with me (I'm an avid reader) involved modern day witches. In one of the descriptive scenes, it talked about a group of people who believe in drinking a certain amount of urine on a daily basis - because they believed it actually improved their health, far from negatively impacting it. This is known as "urine therapy". There are several well-known figures who have practised it.

I did a bit of searching on the Internet and found out that the author wasn't just making this up. Once it exits the body, urine is sterile and doesn't contain anything in it any more harmful than tap water. The only way you can become ill by drinking urine is if comes from somebody who's unhealthy. If the donor's healthy, there is no problem.

I thought about some of the golden shower pictures and clips I'd seen. Taking this new information into consideration, it acted as a way of giving me "permission" to try something that I had previously thought was bad for me - but which, apparently, wasn't. (I knew I wasn't suffering from any diseases or other illness.) So, one night after returning from dinner after a work-related training session, I started looking at golden shower porn, and got myself a bit drunk - as well as excited. I held my erect cock and peed into a hotel room cup. With only a bit of hesitation I took a sip. It tasted essentially no different than water. At the time I was quite well hydrated, the urine was a clear colour - not yellow - and it didn't have the normal "ammonia" smell or taste that you'd get from somebody not hydrated. And I got a huge kick out of doing something so "wrong". I ended up drinking the whole thing.

When I woke up the following morning I wasn't hydrated anymore - and I was neither drunk nor aroused. Still, I made myself repeat what I'd done the night before. This time, the urine was so strong that I couldn't take more than a small sip.

But I've gone back to it over the years - and grown more accustomed to the taste. I've also enjoyed peeing on myself in the shower. And I've looked at a lot more golden shower porn. I still haven't done anything related to this with a partner, but believe I would enjoy it. I'd very much like to lick and suck a woman, and drink from her as she pees directly into my mouth. I'd also like to pee inside her after cumming.

Even though I'd got past the golden showers, I still had an aversion to scat. But my interest slowly grew despite that. At one point I found myself on a scat board, reading various posts, and I also followed the autobiographical stories of several scat pornstars who talked about how they trained themselves and didn't suffer any negative consequences. It turns out that feces are mostly composed of water. The remainder, when coming from a healthy person - and in particular from your *own* body - has little risk of causing illness. Yes, you *can* get ill from eating shit but, as with being cautious about the STD status of your parther, if you make sure to only consume from somebody healthy, and just a little here and there, there isn't really a reason for concern. Assuming that the arousal you feel from doing so outweighs the possible problems, it's no different a risk than any number of other regular activities could be.

I started experimenting with shit a couple of years ago, although nothing major and only infrequently. I would occasionally wipe myself with a finger, or insert it, and then lick it off and swallow the small amount I found there. When surfing porn, I frequently finger myself and then lick it after - but rarely does that produce anything at all.

Interestingly, I've found that shit tastes a bit like bitter chocolate. It's not nearly as bad as I'd thought it would be from its smell. Even more interesting, once I discovered I didn't hate the taste, my perception of the smell itself also changed. Whereas before it smelled "like shit" I actually came to enjoy the aroma. (At least of my own.)

Just tonight, thanks to some like-minded contacts here whose example has "encouraged" me, I spent some time on the toilet very slowly squeezing out a piece the length of a finger into my hand. I had felt it when I inserted my fingers, so I knew it was there, but it was a suprisingly "difficult" process to work my muscles to expel it slowly without it just shooting out as I've had it do my whole life. (There is definitely a bit of a learning curve for anybody wanting to preserve it for use.) Before I could think better of it, I put it in my mouth. I left it there as I finished doing my business on the toilet. There was definitely a bit of a thrill. It was the first time I'd ever had a piece of shit in my mouth, and I liked the idea of what I was doing. However, at the same time, I was fighting against all of my years of conditioning against this very idea. I couldn't bring myself to do more than hold it in my mouth. I couldn't bring myself to squish any part of it with my tongue, let alone chew or swallow any of it. I finally ended up spitting it out and flushing it. At this point, I am both excited at having made progress towards the long-term goal of being able to legitimately call myself a "shit eater" (something that, perversely, sends shivers of pleasure through me at the thought) but also somewhat disappointed. I believe I will need to work on putting a much smaller quantity into my mouth next time and eating it. Once I can get myself used to the idea - and "decondition" my mental reactions - I think I'll have no problem handling this more easily.

As with drinking pee directly from the source, a long-term fantasy is to rim someone and then to eat their shit directly from them. I'm not a fan of messy scat, or of "smearing" - both of which seem to be the most popular of the genre. I'm only really interested in the consumption of scat, and mainly when deposited directly from the ass to the mouth.

Just got back from a week with my extended family. Cousins, Aunt's, Uncles, Parents siblings all of us. They're were about 30 of us. Most of the grandkids 12 of us are in our early 30's and 20's. My Aunt is fairly well to do and has a big house where all the parents stay. I have a cousin who lives in my Grandparents house and all the single cousins stayed there.7 of us, the youngest who are 17 yr old twins and they stayed at my aunts,4 boys 3 girls. We got back Christmas Eve and started drinking. Lot of funny stories and laughs and pranks on the ones that crashed first. That night my cousin Heather,who is adopted along with her two brothers the twins, and I were chatting. I'm 25 and she is 23. She was telling me about her new job and that she could transfer to several different cities if she wanted. We've always been close, our parents lived across the ST from each other most of our lives until her dad transferred about 4 hrs away right before her FR year of high school. The drunker we got the closer she got to me when she told me she had a secret. I asked her what and she leaned over and told me she's had a crush on me since she was 12. She kissed me on the cheek then patted my head like a little boy then she went to bed. She's not gorgeous she is attractive and in shape but she has something about her that makes you want to be with her. Anyways I immediately was turned on but figured it was drunk nonsense. I crashed on the couch. Everybody started waking up way to early but my Aunt was calling mad bc we where supposed to be having brunch and she knew we were all hammered. I got in the shower and was trying to wake up when Heather busted in. She had on a tank top no bra and yoga pants. She said sorry but it's not like we haven't seen each other naked before. I said it was almost 20 yrs ago and neither one of had any hair. She pulled her yoga pants out looked down and said somethings never change. Then yanked back the shower curtain and said well I guess they do in your case. Then closed it back and started putting on her make up and getting ready. Then was gone. She spent the rest of the day slapping me, patting me, hugging me, snuggling by me on the couch.I could tell she was flirting but I just couldn't imagine why. That day passed we all went back and crashed. I grabbed a bed that night bc the couch sucks. About the time I fell asleep Heather came in and asked if she could sleep on the floor like she did when were kids. We talked for a second and as we were drifting off she said Gnight, I love You. I said love you too which she responded NO I LOVE YOU. Then rolled over and went to sleep. I laid there suddenly wide awake not having a clue what's going. When I woke up the next morning she was already up fixing breakfast for everybody. We stayed pretty busy that day going to the mall, which we did every year, just to get in to all the craziness. She took every advantage to touch me that day holding my hand to pull me through a crowd or hitting me when I teased her. That night I grabbed the bed again. This time she asked if she could sleep with me but had her own blankets. We talked more that night she told me about breaking up with her fiancé because there was only one guy she could ever love. She asked about old friends then kissed me on the cheek and told me she loved me then rolled over and went to bed. Luckily I was super tired and fell asleep and didn't have to think about. Things went like this for the next couple of days. Touching, teasing, flirting and cryptic messages about love. New Years Eve we all went to a big party at this bar downtown. We were all getting pretty hammered and dancing. She stayed pretty close to me all night and told guys that asked her to dance I was her boyfriend. The drunker she got the closer she danced on me until she was grinding her ass in my crotch. I was pretty hard and turned on like crazy. The countdown started and the clock struck 12 and we kissed. We made out long after we should have stopped. When we finally came to our senses she looked me in the eyes and Said I've wanted to do that since the day we drove off when we moved. I looked around and made sure none of the family was around which I don't think they were. I grabbed her hand and texted my cousin we were grabbing a taxi and heading home. On the ride we made out and got grabby over the clothes. We got to the house and got in the bed and made out some more until all her alcohol decided it needed somewhere else to go. She at least made it to the bathroom before covering the tile floor with various types of shots and mixed drinks and maybe some pizza. She threw up for a while and I cleaned up the bathroom and put her in the shower with her t shirt and panties on. I brought her a towel and a t shirt of mine and got her into bed where she immediately fell asleep. I laid on the floor and passed out pretty quick. The next morning I woke up and she was still asleep. I watched her sleep and realized how beautiful she really was and how much I laughed over the last week. Most of the cousins left yesterday flying or driving to different parts of the country. We were left alone as my cousin who lived there had some stuff to do. We chatted and you could tell things were tense and she was scared of what I thought now that I was sober. I finally said I guess we are kissing cousins now and her face went bright red. She jumped up and ran to the bathroom and locked the door and I could tell she was crying. She told me to leave her alone. So I did. She came out about an hour later and said she was going to take a nap and locked the bedroom door. She slept for 3 hours and finally woke up at 6. My cousin texted that he wasn't coming home but was going to stay at his GF's house. So I told her it was just us. We got dressed and went to a restaurant to eat. We barely talked and when we did it was about nothing. On the way home she finally spoke up and told me she was in love with me and wanted to be with me. She told me her job had an opening back in our hometown and that she was thinking about moving back. That her parents where transferring again and her brothers where going with them until they graduated. She didn't want to be alone and we had plenty of family around. I told her That was great but was a little freaked out with the whole in love with me stuff ,I knew who she was talking about but finally saying it out loud was a bit weird. We got home and watched a movie and started a fire and I wrapped up in a blanket. After about 30 mins Heather moved next to me and asked if she could share the blanket. I lifted it up and invited her next to me. She started snuggling me until we were making out again. After some kissing she was rubbing my cock on the outside of my basketball shorts. She pushed me back and slid her hands down my shorts and was stroking my cock under my shorts. I pulled off her shirt and started kissing her breasts and sucking her nipples. After a bit she took off my shirt and started kissing down my chest until she got to my shorts. She looked up like she was asking permission and I smiled and she pulled down my shorts and started kissing my cock. I've never been so hard in my life. When she finally took it her mouth I swear it grew another inch. She sucked and stroked and kissed my cock and balls for a bit.I pulled her up to me and kissed her and told her I wanted to taste her. She told me I couldn't bc she had started that morning but that she wanted me to come for her. So she went back and started sucking again going a little deeper this time. I was getting close and told her I was going to cum. She said cum in my mouth and I immediately shot a rope down her throat that made her gag. She swallowed every last drop then moved back up and kissed me we made out a little more but I was pretty much done after cumming. We went to bed and talked some more and kissed then went to bed spooning. This morning when we woke up we made out some more then took a shower together. She jerked me off in the shower and I played with her tits and rubbed her clit but she wouldn't let me do much more. We both packed and went to my aunts and ate breakfast. It was weird bc her parents where still there and I felt like a dirty child. We all chatted until I had to leave to drive the three hour back home. She walked me to the car and kissed me on the cheek and told me again she loved me and to call me when I get home so she knows I'm safe.

Well we just got off the phone and we are both freaking out. She told her mom a few weeks back that she was in love with me and that that's why she broke off her engagement. Her mom warned her that she would probably wind up heart broken bc even though we weren't blood relatives that I might think it was more than weird dating my "cousin". Our mom's are sisters and I honestly think my mom would love it if we got together bc she used to say what a cute couple we would make but I can't imagine my dad would be happy.

So now I'm torn. If this was some girl I just grew up with I could try it and if it didn't work it wouldn't matter bc I wouldn't see her for every holiday for the rest of my life. On the flip side she is awesome and I really want to fuck her but I could see it working out. Who knows? Any ideas?