I am in my mid 30's and separated from my ex-wife almost a year now. My ex got our house and I got most of the 'toys'. Rather then renting an apartment I figured it made more sense to move back to the family farm with the my mother, who has been a widow since my father died a few years ago. Been spending a lot of time here taking care of the place anyway.
I have not been on a date since the separation and have been lonely a lot lately so I have been surfing a lot of porn, especially on Motherless. Well earlier today when I was alone in the house, I was in my room masturbating having been doing the porn thing. Since I was alone I did not bother to close the door. I was jerking off standing in middle of the room with my back to the door. After a few minutes I heard a noise outside the door and turned to look and see my mother stop at the door. I just froze there with my dick in my hand. She said something like 'You don't need to do that'. I thought she thought is was wrong so I just sort of mumbled something, no idea what exactly. She then comes near me, pulls up her dress and bends over as she pulls down her panties. Being so horny what am I going to do? Of course I slide my dick inside of her! having been jacking off for a while and not having felt a warm pussy in so long it only took a few strokes before I was cumming inside of her. I just kept fucking her until I was no longer hard enough to stay in. I mumbled about being sorry that I just couldn't hold it and she said that is alright and left.
I just don't know what is going to happen now. I feel so dirty having fucked my own mother, even came inside her. I don't know if she is expecting this again or what. Not sure if I really have a problem with just fucking her, but if she wants foreplay and all that, there is no way I could do it! I mean how do you make love to your own mother? I have been worrying about this since. Have not seen her since and am sort of avoiding her, just to awkward.
Guess I am just hoping to feel better by typing this, kinda like a diary that others are going to read.
