I confess that I get off to anything that shocks me. Motherless helps with ita little but it's almost like an addiction, I need it and everything else seems too ordinary and plain.

In real life I'm fairly normal... except when the sudden urge to do something spontaneous and shocking takes over, and suddenly I'm seeing a prostitute, cumming in my female friend's shampoo in the washroom, finding videos of my parents fucking in their private collection and masturbating to it, or even getting sucked off at an adult bookstore while watching gay porn. None of it really appeals to me but the shock value that I'm doing it is intense. I once paid for humiliating dominatrix phone/cam sex because half the time my brain was getting off to the thought of "I can't believe I'm doing this" and "what the fuck am I doing?". I'm starting to think that I can't control this compulsion although another part of me doesn't want to.

I'm guessing I'm not the only one on Motherless who gets off to shocking things though. But I'm thinking I have a pretty bad case.

I cannot deny her. All she said to me upon coming home from work was “ASHTRAY NOW! ” in an affirmative tone. Yes GODDESS, I responded. I hurriedly took to the bedroom, stripped and started filling my condom with cigarette butts separated from the filters, and ashes. Then I bent over and spread my ass to open my hole. There were 5 half smoked cigarettes on a plate. I knew what they were for. She loves shoving them in my ass! The menthol burns, as she pours the glass full of her piss after I place myself on the bed. The cigarettes in my ass soak up her piss and immediately react with the menthol making my hole burn and throb. With my condom encasing my little dick and balls she tells me “only gay porn, and today it will be gay scat porn only” she starts to exit the bedroom and turns and says let’s have a smoke first. She uses my mouth as her ashtray and rubs ashes from a container she saves for these occasions into my tits and body as she smokes. I’m already leaking precum in my ashtray filled condom and she tugs it and brings the tobacco into my little dick. She finishes her cigarette and says I’ve got three hours to edge. “Hold the cigarettes in your sissy ass for as long as you can” and “I expect you to stroke the whole time”. “I’ll be back when I want another smoke sissy” she exits the bedroom and I start stroking the dry tobacco and butts in my condom fringing my sissy dick raw. After pissing the menthol tobacco really starts to burn! It’s uncomfortable and humiliating as well as degrading but when she tells me she gets off on humiliating me and she sits out on the couch getting herself off I cannot resist being her sissy faggot ashtray. She never wants to fuck, she gets off degrading me. It’s really a special occasion if she masturbates in front of me as she flicks her ashes in my mouth or puts her cigarettes out on my dick (she cums so hard as she tamps out her cigarette on my little sissy dick). I just confess I cannot deny her her power and control that gets her off. I wonder every day what could be next for me. 

I confess that last night after my girlfriend went to bed, I began jerking to some porn to relieve some much needed tension. When I masturbate I get tons of exotic ideas in my head such as woman on woman, man on man, man on trans and I get tons of fetishes like swallowing huge loads, cream pies, or gang bangs.

This kinda night I was feeling a little 'gay' to be blunt. I was strolling through CL trying to pick up a guy for a quick car blowing, but it was 4AM and I wasn't getting any biters. I never done anything homoerotic before, but was always curious to see what it was like. Without any luck, I came across a porn section called CEI. The girls in the videos looked cute, but I didn't like the humiliation scenes. I finally found a vid where a girl was talking about CEI and wasn't in a demanding or degrading manner. I laid down in front of my couch, lifted my legs up so my feet were passed my head. Sitting there stroking all 7" of my manhood and wanting the little swimmers to spray all over my face. Right before I came, I had a naughty thought pass through my head and said fuck it!! I opened my mouth wide as my dick was only an inch away from my eager tongue. I stroked to the video and when she told me to cum, I did. All in my mouth and on the front of my chin, down to my neck and upper chest. It was more liquid than cream, and without hesitation took a big gulp of the half-shot of warm seed in my mouth. I have been eating a lot of fruit and have been on a healthy diet the past month. To my surprise it tasted sweet. I used my hands to grab what was left on my chin, went to clean up, and laid there in bed with my girlfriend. Maybe tonight I will get her to swallow and we can share?

I am 24 and male. I confess, that I got my asshole violated and loved it. I always liked girls, but now I know that I have an asspussy, so maybe I need to reconsider some things.

I don´t want to bore everybody with all the details about the background story and how it happened. I found my self in a room with a bunch of guys and they decided to rape me. They wanted me to suck their dicks and threatened me whit a knife when I refused to do it. I didn't want to get hurt, so I basically gave in from then on. I got on my knees and started to suck cock. After a few minutes, when everyone was rock hard, one of them said something like: While we are at it, why not fuck his ass?

While undressing me, they noticed that I got an erection from giving head. I don´t know why I got hard from sucking their cocks, I really didn't like it at that point, I just concentrated on doing it. Well long story short, they started calling me a faggot and gave me a girls name. At that point there was no holding back for them, my lack of resistance and the obvious signs my body gave, made them believe I wanted all that to happen. Well maybe subconscious I did.
In addition to the girls name, they decided it would be kinda gay if they fucked a dude. So one of them went to the bedroom to borrow some panties and makeup from his girlfriend. They sliced the panties open, so my asshole would be accessible when I ware them. Then I got some lipstick on my lips, but not like you normally would apply lipstick, they just smeared it across my lips and cheeks. To finish it of I got a cowgirl hat, to cover up my male looking hairstyle.

They all laughed at me and told me what a pretty girl I am. I felt completely helpless and humiliated, weak and robbed of all my masculinity. Not that I think being weak and helpless is a feminine trait, but at this point, being in this situation I had no choice, other than feeling feminine. Being male just wasn't an option. I looked down on myself, saw my, now limp, cock in those panties and couldn't resist to think how cute those panties look on me.
One of them noticed that I went limp and said to me he knows exactly what I need now, to get in the mood again. I was told to get on all fours, so I did. He told me to crawl over to him and suck his dick, and I eagerly did. While I was sucking his dick, one of them started to lube my asshole and fingered it for a bit. I tried to relax my hole as good as possible, because I didn't want it to hurt. It sounds illogical, but when you push like you are taking a dump, its easier to take things up the butt. After figuring that out, he had no problems fitting two fingers in my ass. He then spat on his cock and pushed it against my hole. I guess my ass was a bit gaped after he pulled out his fingers because I tried to keep it as lose as possible and he said to some of the other guys: "Look at that greedy fuckhole!" one of the others said: "She is a real talent!", while saying that, he got in front of me and pushed his cock in my face. I switched to sucking his meat and continued to rub the other guys cook. The lipstick was all over my face. At the same time the guy behind me pushed his dick in my asshole. He was very gentle and slowly pushed his cock deeper and deeper with every thrust. Once he was balls deep, he took up a decent speed, but not to fast or hard. I kept sucking and started to produce muffled moans. They where right, it seemed to be what I need, my cock was hard again.
"I am going to make you feel like a real girl! Do you like to get fucked in your cunt?!" I had my mouth full of cock, so I didn't answer right away. The guy fucking me slapped my ass really hard and said: "I am asking you a question you stupid bitch, answer me!" The guy I was sucking pulled back, grabbed me by the chin, made me look directly at him and said: "Answer him! Do you like being fucked in your cunt?!" before I could answer the guy behind me started to orgasm, he suddenly started to pound me real hard and fast, my whole body rocking back and forth from his thrusts and him pulling me back on his cock. The guy holding my chin now screams at me: "Answer!" and whit every thrust from behind I get out one word at the time: "Yes-I-love-to-get-my-ass-hole-fucked!" He finishes whit one last hard push and pulls out. I feel cum dripping out of my ass. Then he says, heavily breathing: "Thats not your asshole you fucking slut. Thats your pussy from now on, a girl has to have a pussy. Do you understand that?" I answer "Yes...i do". One of them slaps my ass and says: "Good girl. Now beg us to keep fucking you."
So I am kneeling there on all fours, cum dripping from my hole, running down my leg, I am still stoking one guy with my left hand, feeling waves of bliss floating from my asspussy through my whole body, feeling the relive of being nothing else as a peace of fuckmeat. I stop to stroke the cock, I lay down on my back, spread my legs as good as I can and start to finger my dripping hole. "'Please fuck my asspussy, make me feel like a girl, pleeeeease. I want you to fill me up whit cum! I need your cocks, please make me cum!" I started to stroke my hard cock throgh the panties while fingering my cunt. One of them closed in on me: "You gonna get what you need until you cant take it anymore!" he pushed his cock in my greedy hole and started to fuck me, he fucked me way harder than the guy before, it felt amazing. He then slapped my hand away from my dick and said: "Stop stroking that ting! You can´t jerk off with a clit like that. Girls don't always get to cum. If you can´t cum from getting your cunt fucked, you don´t get to cum at all."
From then on I got fucked in every position I could imagine and some I couldn't. After hours of fucking and cumming I was covered in their lovejuice, my panties drenched in sweat and cum and my pussy was gaped. It was heaven...

This is more like a series of confessions than a single one.

I am a male. My sexuality is a bit complicated though.

While I am very aggressive, dominant, and very sadistic at times with women and most transgender women, I also love to be a cuck and be used by men. I have a very big cock and I am attractive, but I love to be used too

I used to be married, and my wife would fuck anyone she wanted, including my friends and our neighbors. Eventually she left me for one of her friends. I have been humiliated and used by people I know and watched them do the same to her and it made me cum just as hard as when I would tie her up and play with her. I wish I was still in a relationship like that but it's not easy to find someone you connect with like that.

Yesterday I had sex with a gorgeous blonde whore I paid 300 to fuck every way you can imagine (with a condom. I don't know how people fuck whores without protection.), in some tiny room on a couch in a rus Sian brothel. I think she is being trafficked but I don't really care it only makes it hotter when I think about it. She told me she is going back to the chech republic in 2 weeks so if I want more to make sure I see her before then. I will. I wish I had enough money to buy her as my own slave.

After that I wanted to be used too so I went to a gay bar and I met a guy there who took me in the bathroom and I sucked his cock for a long time. He had a really nice one. He bent me over and fucked me so hard I came into my boxers and he came in my ass. I let it drip out of me all night. I'm on prep so I'm not worried about that. I want to get fucked more, but I want a gf to watch it happen and humiliate me for it and fuck them too, then fuck her when she is all messy after.

I've done a lot more things than this, and have written about them here anonymously going back to when I was still married, but I felt like confessing this.

Thanks for reading.

I confess. I am a straight male with a very sexy and passionate girlfriend. I love having sexy with her, eating her out, fucking her ass (which she loves) making her scream and moan... but I also fantasize often about being a sexy lil sissy, shemale, trap cock slut for a nice fit guy (or guys). My fantasy started almost 10 years ago when I expanded my horizons and started looking at MMF porn, then that turned to bi porn and eventually I started looking at CD, sissy, trap and shemale porn. I began chatting online back when Yahoo was the place to chat. I, like so many other's, posted and pretended to be female. I started experimenting, rubing my asshole while stroking my cock, which led to a finger, then 2, etc. Over the past few years I started to wear sexy thongs and thigh highs. I have purchased several dildos for to play with. I am at the point now that I chat online on Chatave and on often get on video showing off my sexy thong and thigh highs, and get off chatting as a cock slut for horny str8, bi or gay men, sometimes women too. I will fuck my ass on cam with my favorite dildo and often will finish by throwing my legs over my head as I push my dildo deep into my cock hungry ass and cum into my wanting mouth or on my face. I love the warmth and taste of my cum. I've cum on my dildo and returned it immediately to my ass so I can get cum in my ass. I get super aroused when I suck on one of my dildo as I fuck my ass with another. I would really like to experience my fantasy. I'm not looking to be humiliated. I just want to explore my sexual boundaries.

Any wives or girlfriends turn your hubby into a gay sissy faggot?

I caught my husband crossdressed sucking the neighbors cock one day when I returned home from work! I made him finish off the neighbor which made me so wet! Probably because I’d ducked the same neighbor behind my husbands back many times. After this incident I decided I’d keep my crossdressing husband around (I had known of his dressing for some time and even indulged him just to make him happy while I fucked real men on the side. Any how after that day 20 years ago I’ve never let my sissy husbands little dick near any of my holes. I’ve made him suck cock to cum and turned him into a sissy faggot submissive and docile. He will obey any command no matter how humiliating or degrading it may seem. He will expose himself at my command and begs for my attention which is only humiliation. Any other girls have sissy husbands they like using to pleasure men?  Let’s hear your stories!! 

Im just such a gay closet boy. I wanna be a fag whore for all my friends and neighbors! Humiliate and degrade me as the worthless cocksucker i am i drop to my knees for dicks  

hi I'm a very perverted straight guy, I've been watching a lot of gay porn for years, I've never met men but what I'd like most is to find several very degenerate men on this website to have a great orgy and be the submissive whore of all, who practice extreme domination with me, very strong humiliations. I'm looking to feel very dirty, mistreated, real men who make me feel like a worthless piece of shit. I know it's dangerous but it's what turns me on the most, send a message and I'll contact you later, I'm looking for real

Dom wife here to ask a question to wives, girlfriends and the subs they control. I’m looking for ideas for my sub, he is a committed sissy who has never denied me any pleasure or plain entertaining task I’ve demanded just for fun. My sub does everything from mild to wild without hesitation, so what’s some good humiliating tasks, degrading things you do to your sub. It can be public, gay., Bi, self inflicting, obedience related, servicing,, anything no limits. Let’s hear what is your go to Dom female/sub make kink/fetish for thrills. Thanks - I’m trying to break sissy and get away from the same old thing time after time. 

pic for you Of my boyfriends cum taken by sissy just before he licks me clean and sucks my piss out.